Sunday, December 03, 2006

I'm not dead, but feeling that way just the same

My marriage is over.

Those are four words I never thought I'd be saying. The other five are I don't love you anymore. Strange that I've said them both repeatedly in the past 24 hours. Strange too is how I do still love him, but can't, and won't, love his behavior or personality.

He's drinking again. And for once, I'm sticking to my guns and going through with what I told him I would last time he drank. He's shocked, I'm sad. Being a grown up sucks.

The kids are fine and it will probably take them a few days to understand that daddy may not be coming back. For good this time.

2 comments:

Kari said...

I'm so sorry.
A friend of mine is going through divorce right now too. It's so hard. I wish you strength and courage.

Laina said...

I'm so sorry, Christina. :( If you need anything, you know where to find me.