Idaho, how do I love thee?

I was on the phone with a friend back in California the other day (hey, she has friends!) and she asked me if I still enjoy living in Idaho. Yes and no, that was my answer.

Why yes? Well, the weather is nice. I always enjoy having four different seasons. In California, all I got was kinda hot, hot, and really hot. This past year I've really enjoyed experiencing what spring fever is all about. The days are slowly getting warmer and I'm itching for sunshine. My girls are practically climbing the walls wanting to go outside and run.

I also like the pace of life here. No one seems to be in that big of a hurry. Grocery clerks actually talk to you and you enjoy talking with them. I like my neighbors, they watch out for me. My upstairs neighbor made me dessert the other night, just because. Never did I have that in CA. Hell, my neighbor there didn't even speak English, so all we ever did was smile uncomfortably at each other and nod.

Now, why don't I like it? Well, for one the cost of living seems to be rising, but the wages aren't. I make "pretty good money for this area" as I'm told by Those Who Know Things. But, even with Scott gone, I am barely squeaking by. Oh, I'm doing okay, not starving or getting final notices or anything. I just wish I didn't have to stretch that dollar so tight. At least I have the comfort in hoping that when Scott gets out, he'll rejoin the workforce and then our plans can get back on track. It's really made me appreciate the truly single moms that do this year in and out. I think knowing this is (hopefully) temporary is what doesn't keep me up at nights.

I'm not unhappy with the decision of moving here almost 2 years ago. I've adjusted to living here and that's all I can do, right?

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My heart has unhardened. I have finally reached a point where I can no longer be angry with Scott. To do so would turn me into something bitter. And I don't want to go there.

My nights are lonely. I miss him the most while watching "our shows." But, it's not too bad. I do get to sleep in the middle of the bed. And I don't have to share the remote. There's a silver lining to every cloud.

I've started another blog. So, I'll probably be writing there more than here. Which actually, even if I wrote only once a month over there, it'd still be more than what I've done here.

I just figured out that I can blog from work. For some reason the old computer I was sitting at wouldn't let me pull up dashboard. So, the possibilities just became clear. Now, I have something to occupy my time when I'm supposed to be working.